How to be a better parent

1. Stop putting Dick before your kids.
2. Feed your kids.
3. Bathe your kids.
4. Don't allow drug addicts/dealers to babysit your kids.
5. If your baby daddy wants to be in your child/rens life/lives let him and use that as your down time which leads me to number
6. Don't lock your kids up in a room to substitute for a babysitter
7. Don't leave human feces on your floor.
8. Don't date physically abusive men.
9. Don't lie.
10.Don't lose your kids to foster care.
11. Don't try to kill yourself home alone with your kids.
12. Don't have an IQ below 100.
13. Don't be in a 2 year college for 4 years 2 months to be a DJ...which brings us to number
14. Get a real fucking job.
15. Don't use child support to join pyramid schemes..see number 14.
16. Don't have any more children if you can not or have not followed these rules and immediately sign your children over to their father because you will surely ruin your kids lives if you don't because you are an embarrassment, an idiot, and a whore.
PS, you should have no more than 1 boyfriend every 2 years not weeks slut, and stop moving them in with your kids are you running a fucking youth hostel?!?!

Laugh Now Cry Later Bitch

Just 1 or 2 more months. Then the truth can all come out. I'm so tired of the arrogance and the complete disrespect and disregard of a child's feelings and well being. The fact that someone would flaunt that and enjoy that in front of a judge who will be judging the trial?!?! Contempt is a crime not a game the immaturity is astonishingly unbelievable. No one can possibly be that dumb!! And justify allowing a child abusing convicted drug addict/dealer to watch a child unsupervised but deny a great father, with no criminal record or record of abuse and neglect(unlike the bad mom brigade) and two healthy advanced children, the right to be in his child's life all because what? He doesn't want you? He got married? He has yet to even be allowed to see his real grandparents but he's at the drug dealer's house, who abused his father so bad his father was taken away at the age of one and she never was in his life until he turned 18, and also drove another of her children to the point where he blew his brains out because of her. This shit makes me sick. The judge gave her a chance to stop being in contempt she refused to even allow visitation let alone the court order already in effect. We visited him every week for months when he was in FOSTER CARE(BECAUSE SHE TRIED TO OFF HERSELF HOME ALONE WITH THE KIDS LOCKED IN A ROOM AND WERE COMPLETELY FERAL, HER OLDEST IS NOW PERMANENTLY DEVELOPMENTALLY DISABLED BECAUSE OF THAT AND HE HAS BEEN IN FOSTER CARE TWICE) SHE IS A REPEAT OFFENDER OF NEGLECTING CHILDREN WHEN WE GO TO TRIAL THAT WILL BE BROUGHT UP! YOUR DUMB ASS SMILING BECAUSE ITS GOING TO TRIAL!?!? THATS BAD FOR YOU!!! THE CONCILIATOR AND THE JUDGE BOTH WROTE ABOUT YOUR NON COMPLIANCE AND CHOICE TO BE IN CONTEMPT AND TO KEEP A FATHER AND SON APART FOR NO OTHER REASON BESIDES YOUR AFRAID HES NOT GONNA WANT TO LEAVE HIS FATHER. YOU SAID IT YOURSELF HE BEGS TO SEE HIS DAD EVERYDAY YOU TELL HIM HIS DAD DOESNT WANT HIM THEN YOU TELL HIS FATHER HE CANT SEE HIM ITS SICK. AT THIS TRIAL WHEN WE GET PRIMARY CUSTODY AND ALLOW YOU YOUR SUPERVISED VISITATION YOU CAN SEE WHAT ITS LIKE TO DO THE RIGHT THING. YOU ARE AN AWFUL MOTHER AND SEVERELY MENTALLY INSANE AND YOU ARE IN CONTEMPT OF A COURT ORDER ALSO BLACK MAILING US SAYING IF HE CONTINUES TO TRY AND GET HIS PARTIAL PHYSICAL CUSTODY YOU ARE GOING TO CONTINUE TO CALL THE POLICE AND FILE FOR DEFAMATION OF CHARACTER BECAUSE HE TOLD THE TRUTH IN THE EMERGENCY COURT PAPERS. YOU ARE A NUT CASE HES NEVER THREATENED YOU OR HARMED YOU OR ANY WOMAN OR CHILD FOR THAT MATTER BUT YOU LIE TO EVERYONE SAYING HE DOES. WE HAVE THE TRUTH FOR EVERY LIE YOU TOLD!LMAO YOU ARE GOING DOWN AT THAT COURT HEARING. THAT EVIDENCE PROVES IT ALL. PLUS IM TAKING THE STAND I CANT WAIT. YOU HAVE NO LOVE FOR THIS WONDERFUL BEAUTIFUL LITTLE BOY  HES JUST A PAWN FOR YOU TO USE AS REVENGE AGAINST HIS FATHER BECAUSE HE DIDNT WANT YOU AND WILL NEVER WANT YOU. YOU ARE SAD AND PATHETIC AND YOU WILL LOSE. THE LAW IS SELF EXPLANATORY. WHEN A PARENT REFUSES TO COMPLY WITH ANY CUSTODY ORDER THE JUDGE GIVES CUSTODY TO THE OTHER PARENT. YOU CAN GO TO JAIL FOR WHAT YOU ARE DOING! ITS NOT FUNNY YOU'RE LAUGHING ABOUT HURTING MY SON! YOUR SICK IN THE HEAD! YOUR TRUE FEARS ARE ABOUT TO COME TRUE. ONCE HE GETS HERE HES NEVER GOING TO WANT YOU AGAIN. EVERY TIME WE'VE SEEN HIM HES WANTED TO LEAVE WITH US IVE SEEN YOUR GOOD BYES WITH HIM HE COULDNT WAIT TO BE AWAY FROM YOU AS YOU CLUNG TO HIM AS HE KICKED SCREAMED AND WHINED FOR HIS DADDY. IN A VISIT I PLAYED WITH HIM AND HE TOLD ME I DONT WANT TO GO HOME TO MOMMY I DONT LIKE IT. EVEN AT 11 MONTHS OLD HE ALMOST FLIPPED HIS STROLLER TRYING TO REACH FOR HIS DADDY WHILE YOU JUST STOOD THERE LOOKING STUPID WITH YOUR 96 IQ. TELLING THE JUDGE YOU WONT HONOR THE JUDGE ORDERED CUTODY ORDERS FOR LEGAL AND PHYSICAL CUSTODY?!?!? YOU THINK THAT SHIT WAS SMART?!? YOU HAVE TO GO TO TRIAL NOW DUMB ASS WITH A STRICT JUDGE WHO IS GONNA SEE RIGHT THROUGH YOUR LIES AND NONSENSE WHEN WE SHOW HER THE TRUTH! WE HAVE SO MUCH AGAINST YOU ITS CRAZY! THIS IS WHAT WEVE BEEN WAITING FOR A CHANCE TO SHOW THAT YOUR MENTALLY INSANE SEVERELY IRRESPONSIBLE, PUTING HIS LIFE IN DANGER, AND COMPLETELY SHIELDING HIM FROM HIS FATHER AND HIS FATHERS FAMILY! NO JUDGE IS GONNA THINK WHAT YOUR DOING IS OK. BECAUSE HE CANT CONTACT YOU AT ALL OVER THREAT OF POLICE INVOLVEMENT THE COURT WILL MAKE IT SO THAT YOU HAVE TO CALL HIM AND ME TO SEE MY SON. LMAO SO KEEP LAUGHING YOU RETARD BECAUSE IN A MONTH OR TWO YOUR GONNA BE SO SALTY. FAMILY COURT DOESNT TAKE KINDLY TO PEOPLE WHO ABUSE THE COURT SYSTEM AND ROB A CHILD OF THEIR PARENT. YOU JUST KEEP SAYING YOU WANT HIS FATHER TO NOT BE IN HIS LIFE AT ALL SEE WHERE THAT GETS YOU!!! LMAOOOO!!!! YOU ARE LITERALLY HANDING HIM TO US WITH YOUR NONSENSE. HE DESERVES A NORMAL CHILDHOOD WHERE HES NOT IN DANGER OF BEING KILLED BECAUSE HES AT A DRUG DEALERS HOUSE WHO IS SNITCHING ON HER SUPPLIER OR BECAUSE HE EATS SOME OF HER PILLS OR CRACK ON THE GROUND IN THE HOUSE OR BECAUSE YOUR WHORE WAYS BRINGS A DANGEROUS BOYFRIEND(AGAIN YOUVE HAD 3 DOMESTIC VIOLENCE CASES THAT WE KNOW OF WHERE YOUVE BEEN BEATEN AND IM SURE HE HAS TOO) WHO IS A DRUNK AND AN ADDICT BECAUSE YOU ARE SO DESPERATE FOR A MAN..THE TWO GUYS I KNOW OF JUST GOT OUTTA JAIL BEFORE YOU LET THEM MOVE IN AFTER DATING FOR A FEW WEEKS...YOU EVEN TOLD ONE OF THEM HE WAS MY SONS FATHER!!!!YOUR PROMISCUITY WILL ALSO BE APART OF YOUR DOWNFALL HAVING A NEW BOYFRIEND EACH MONTH IS UNSTABLE. WE HAVE ALL OF THIS EVIDENCE TRICK! THE JUDGE IS GONNA PICK THE SAFER PARENT WHERE THERES A MOM AND A DAD AND OTHER CHILDREN NO DRUG ADDICTS/DEALERS OR HISTORY OF CHILD ABUSE/NEGLECT, OR CRIMINAL HISTORY....LOOK AT THE TRUTH OF YOUR LIFE BECAUSE WE HAVE IT AND ARE GONNA SHOW IT...THEN LOOK AT THE TRUTH OF OUR LIFE NOT THE LIES YOU MADE UP BECAUSE WE HAVE THE TRUTH AND ARE GONNA SHOW IT...AND DETERMINE WHO YOU THINK THE JUDGE IS GOING TO CHOSE???? ARE YOU STILL LAUGHING?

Baby Mama Drama/defacation of character

First let me begin by saying defamation of character only occurs if what the person you claim is defamating your character is telling lies. When the person is truthful, you just have bad character. Now if anyone could sue for that its me because the lies you spread about me are vicious, but im about to tell the truth. You sit in your feces smeared house hating me and wishing you could be me. I have never harassed you once so stop telling my husband I do. I printed out our conversation so he sees the truth of your rudeness to me and my kindness in the face of your rudeness to you. You claim I'm cyber stalking you but it is the other way around. In your latest pfa the evidence is clear that you searched his name and not that he posted something to intimidate you. Your so vain I bet you think that my posts are about you. This one is though. You tell everyone with ears that you are a victim. Your mother was never a crackhead your son wasnt concieved by rape and you and my husband have never been in a relationship. Your twisted fantasies are about to be exposed in front of a judge and you will lose. We have evidence you locked your children up like animals in a zoo starving them and letting them fight like savages leaving scars and scratches on their innocent bodies. You allowed strange man after man into your home allowing yourself to be beaten and abused before their innocent eyes. They eat until they vomit because they don't know when their next meal is coming. Your corrupted caseworker swept it all under the rug for you taking your case to save her own ass for allowing you to have custody in the first place you make me sick. Lying after you attempted suicide saying you didn't know who his father was to keep it a secret and your caseworker knew him and allowed it. You should both be rotting in jail for what you've done. Christmas I bought the boys so many gifts and you came with an unwrapped toy car from the local drugstore yet you say I want to hurt him?!?!? You hurt him!!!!!! And still are!! Keeping him from his family to hide your abuse and neglect!!! You are a sick human being with your sick lies you will burn in the pit of hell for what you did to those poor boys!!! The true victims and yet you sit pitiful pretending do be helpless and simple you know how to be a mother its not hard! And yet you didn't and you're not being one now. If you do anything to hurt my son before this court hearing you are gonna wish Satan gets you before I do. I love that boy like he's mine so stop your lies that I don't! I would never hurt him or his brother and neither would my husband and you know this but you say this anyways! What is wrong with you?!?! Why are you tearing apart my family's hearts keeping him from us its even illegal. Get over it he doesn't want you my husband doesn't and neither does my son. His poor voice saying he doesn't wanna go home with mommy killed me. He went ignored because you and that wretched piece of trash that regrettably birthed my husband has done nothing but sabotage our chances but that all ends soon. The judge we have is strict and by the book your goose is cooked "hun" also quit calling my husband that its pathetic we have you saying if he didn't get married he'd be in his sons life! I've never done anything until now, and even still this is a blog no one reads for me to vent! This isn't even the half of it i taste a victory and you know it that's why your claiming we are gonna hurt the kids your drowning in a sea of your lies, atrocities, and schemes, so your grasping at whatever you can to hold on to your ill gotten temporary win but you cant and you won't. Soon he will be safe from you and if your oldest son's father has half a brain he'd take you for custody too BC he's the child you hate and it shows. You tell people he's the product of rape when I have screenshots of your Facebook relationship proving how much of a psychopath you really are. You're fucking sick in the head severely hating your child because he's black!!! You are black!!! I witnessed with my own eyes on how bad he was abused he looked like a starving African child! The fact that you aren't in jail proves how fucked up the system is because other people have been jailed for less and your fat sloppy caseworker let's you get away with it. Well you can't hide behind her fat ass anymore. That court date is coming and soon my family will be whole whether you like it or not. PS we all have clean urines so good luck with that....not lmao I hope you go to jail for contempt I really do. You would still be there for the level of abuse you've done to these sweet innocent boys. And the wonderful foster mother who saved those boys from being too behind speculated they were molested if my son confirms it your ass is mine bitch and take that to the fucking bank!!!

Stop Lying About Me!!!

stop lying about me. i can drive just fine cory never said that. im not worried about you im his wife of almost4 years been with him of almost 5. im not going anywhere so get used to it. i dont harrass you ive never said one bad thing to you and i havent messaged you sinc 2013 in may. all ive ever done was offer you help. dont be mad at me bc im a good mother and your not and im with cory and your not. i never called the police on you lmao you sound exactly like your 96 iq. i called the police on fran and gina bc they were on my facebook saying they hope i have breast cancer and that i deserve it. you lie to everyone trying to say im the reason cory doesnt talk to those snakes lol you must not know cory. your pathetic stop blaming me for your problems up untill i found out about what you did to those sweet little boys i did nothing but give you the benefit of the doubt. you make me sick what/ you think cause you block someone the messages disappear? they are still there with your name and the date and time connected to each one. we have proof over every single lie you told its atrocious that a human being would tell her child hes the product of rape when hes not just to excuse your neglect and abuse of them. the truth is about to come out you proved that you are an unfit parent all by yourself lol stop saying lies about me cory annd i thought it was so hilarious you are so obviously jealous of me. i was at that contempt hearing. you were warned by the judge that if he had to see you for contempt again he'd make it so that you would have to call cory for your visits we are going to the court house tomorrow so dont try anything stupid, you put those kids back in foster  care dear jen is gonna get fired for repeatedly helping you get custody of them. you hate me because i know the truth thats why you all hate me i have an iq of 126. i absorbed every detail i ever heard and when it comes to you we have more than enough proof. ps stop lying to these ppl you got fat bc imfat and you think if you get fat maybe cory will want you lmmfao he wont ever! hes in love with me and only me. he never loved you lol he never liked you and you sit and use Jayson as a pawn "if it wasnt for your wife you would have been seeing him" you are so jealous of me its sad. i dont talk about ppl behind their backs as you see i have something to say i go to the source. your an alcoholic and a pill popper and a whore. plus you're insane ugly fat and dumb thats why your dumb ass is single and always will be. your not even allowed to have a man how violent is this one hahahaha thanks for this tho just more proof for the judge.

Hooray For Benign Tumor

Yay cancer free!!! Well my breast are anyways, still have to get my pituitary gland checked out but I will cross that bridge when I get there. Well that's it as far as I am concerned... this will be a short post because what I have to say next is so extreme so out of this world crazy that putting it with this post doesn't even make sense. I am going to take you all back to the beginning of my husbands troubles and struggles to be a father to the only son he will ever have. A precious boy we love with all our hearts and the monsters who do everything humanly possible to keep him from being with us while simultaneously pretending that they are victims that don't know why my husband has shunned them so. But before I get into his hard times I endure with him I need a post for myself.  When breast cancer was wished on me (plus death from it) I was also called a bad mother.  Which I call bullshit. So stay tuned because this next post will be pure ranting lol. Be warned because I need it.

To a Fake Friend

Dear Fake Friend,

You are a bitch. Lol. Seriously though this was the lowest of the low things to do to a person. You faked this perfect relationship I had no idea the issues you were going through with him. So when I found out you too broke up and why... I was under the impression that this was a random one time screw up. So I talked about my relationship and how we worked things out and how I couldn't imagine going through this breast cancer scare with out him and if all your ex did was material than don't give up just yet. And me praying you make the right decision means either way do what is right for you because I was still going to love (lmao) you anyways like a sister (ha yeah right) no matter what. Now if I knew that your "perfect" relationship was abusive it would have been a different story. And its laughable how you say I tried to turn you against your ex boyfriend's mother(because in reality that's what she is and that's so toxic on a New relationship no matter how you slice it) I told you from day one I don't care who you associated with as long as anything I shared with you stayed with you. So in what world was it okay to tell the primordial ooze my husband and your fiance crawled from that I may have breast cancer.  You were the sixth and last person I told. You know they hate me and that they are awful people who are psychos and child abusers and drug addicts who have threatened to kidnap my children. Can you imagine my surprise to see a beautiful post I wrote to the world about being kind to others marred by your only so called friends telling me I deserve to have breast cancer and die because I keep those monsters from my kids. You are an insane sick human being, just like your good buddies. I hope you have to watch at every"family" function your fiance loving up on his brother (my husband's) baby mama. They played you like a fiddle. To be honest I don't believe the abuse BS because all you portrayed was perfect soul mate love. You are the scum of the earth. Thank you for telling my whole family I may be dying because that was exactly the way I wanted them to find out. You and your overgrown high school dried up bullies will rot in hell forever right next to Judas in the lowest level of hell reserved for betrayers. I really appreciated having death by breast cancer wished on me and being told I deserve it. And thank you for saying I deserved to be tortured that way because I told you to pray on your relationship that was an added bonus. I honestly hope your fiance is having the time of his life on the money he got for selling the Christmas gifts you gave him. News flash its not stealing if its a gift you idiot so he will get away scott free for that one. So if you're anything like your insane buddies you made up the abuse because he can't be charged for selling a gift. Your fiance has smoked crack shot up heroine done every drug made to man most likely and you are undoubtedly the worst mistake he ever made. I am so happy to be rid of you and I wouldn't piss on you if you were on fire. So kindly go fuck yourself you coward ass bitch and choke on a dick thank you. And when you are old and alone and barren I hope you remember me and the "pain" you thought you were causing me because I told you the truth while you, like the disgusting oozing anal pus you associate with are horrible soulless liars.

Have an awful life, sincerely,

A person who honestly wouldn't give a shit if you spontaneously combusted this very instance.

P.s your fiance was an intravenous drug user and even though you wish death on me I honestly hope you dont have AIDS  :)

Screw It...Just A Breast Cancer Scare

My new mantra... it's just a breast cancer scare. There is no diagnosis no proof, just symptoms.  So with that being said I'm going to try and not stroke out worrying about something I can't control. I sometimes feel myself hyperventilating and breaking out into tears because of my FEARS, not FACTS. What is in a name? Would a mass by any other name be less terrifying? Who knows?  I don't know all I know is I get confused, like trying to squeeze my left foot into my right boot or not being able to concentrate when people talk tome. Or other things. ..many other things. Like being so dehydrated after drinking 3 bottles of water in a row,  or worse,  peeing myself 4 to 5 times a day (which my fully potty trained 3 year old finds hilarious) and that saddens me even more.  She doesn't understand mommy may be sick. Mommy may not watch her grow..no I can't go  there yet. I'm not ready yet..it is too soon and I know nothing but speculations and guessing. I spent today basking in the beauty that is my daughters. I'm crying now and it's OK, words cannot express(cliche I know I don't care) how much they mean to me. Seriously how many 13 month old babies can count to 10? Or sneeze and say "God bless you" and "thank you" to herself, and to others? The level of intelligence with these two tiny versions of me is extraordinary. When my 3 year old knows her ABC's and can count to 30. She is an animal expert/lover she can recognize and name animals I didn't even know she knew.  How could I ever say goodbye to the two people who made my life worth living?  It shocks and appalls me to know there are mothers in this world who do not completely adore the little people who slid from their bodies.  Like my stepson I love him dearly. ..his mother sees a paycheck and a meal ticket and a way to latch onto people because she can not function as a singular human being.  She herself is a cancer destroying everything she touches, turning this beautiful gift from God into a chess piece, a pawn, a way to trap a man or birth mother of said man...weird I know I will most likely get into that another day. I fear I may not see the day that he is finally rescued from her abusive talons (yes she is in fact abusive and neglectful I am no hater I've seen how thin he was and starved for human contact because he was locked in a room without food or drink and left to die when she attempted suicide) and placed with his father (my husband of 3 years) and his sisters who adore him. To this day my eldest B will see Thomas the tank engine and go "mommy can we get this for J, he loves Thomas," and we have to say no because his mother won't allow any contact with him to even give him gifts. Her high and mighty attitude towards us and to think she had him in foster care for 15 months because she "doesn't know J's father" lies we were in court for contempt of a custody order. She is a monster. But not today on this post. Next post I will delve deeper but this, this is my love for my three children.  Yes he is my son and I love him like I love my daughters. I pray with all my heart I live to see him happy and unafraid living with a real family where there is no plotting back-stabbing and betrayal,  just love. I want my kids to know how much I love them and how I will fight every day to be there for them. To my precious girls I pray what I have is nothing so that they don't have to live in fear that mommy's genetics haven't condemned  them. So that I may comfort them in their sadness and rejoice with them in their joy. To my son I love you and wish you a normal happy life not being raised to hate us or believe we abandoned you because we did not. The two women that are your birth mom and your father's birth mom have done everything in their power to keep us apart as a family,  even going so far as to having your sisters torn from us and I pray that they do not destroy you the way they did the uncle you are named for. To my husband,  I love you flaws and all and if death does part us I pray you find true love and happiness in a woman wonderful enough for our children to call mommy. But most of all I pray to be with you till we are old and gray and that this lump is a speed bump and not a brick wall because love like this can work miracles. You have given me light where there was sadness and despair, joy where there was loneliness and worry, and love where there was darkness and hate. Thank you God for this man and these children who have turned this wild chaotic life into the best roller coaster I never want to get off of. Breast cancer is not in my future I embrace that wholeheartedly. This "scare" isn't going to scare me for long.  This is not the beginning of a cancer battle this will be the end of a cancer scare. I believe it and I receive it!

You Gotta Be Kidding Me

No its not a Happy New Year. I hate the Internet its brain crack.  You know its bad for you but you can't stop. Doing research trying to link my symptoms to something other than breast cancer that has spread to the pituitary gland but that's not working. Last year I was diagnosed with high blood pressure and surprise the medicine I took for a year is linked to causing breast cancer! Pituitary cancer causes blurred and double vision because it has been linked to hormonal eye changes...now why did that resonate with me? Maybe the reason is before my blood pressure problem I was diagnosed with keratoconus which is a degenerative eye disease where some type of mysterious hormone imbalances causes the cornea to weaken and lose its shape causing blurred and double vision.  My diagnosis isn't even confirmed and all I can think is...just cremate me its a lot cheaper. Migraines, breast lumps, and future blindness... if I had a future to look forward to. I am this mysterious perfect cluster fuck in everything I do and everything I am. When I fuck up I do it good and thoroughly.  It's like my skill in life. I remember a movie I seen with Jessica Alba and Dane Cook I forget the name but Alba's character was completely me and completely hotter. Her cute quirky walking disaster design spoke to me on deeper levels than the movie itself swam in...Good Luck Chuck...that was it. Murphy's law, anything that can go wrong does go wrong, literally the story if my life. I should change my name to Murphy's Law because that is me.  My.....my my my.... dammit I'm so selfish right now...what the fuck. My kids my 2 beautiful girls, the baby is one and the eldest three. Breast cancer is hereditary. Have I doomed them to constant doctors and tests poking and prodding from the time they turn twenty for the rest of their lives? What if I don't make it? Jeez look at me already planning my death on symptoms with no confirmed diagnosis in sight. Its just a mass right now. Nothing more. I have this defeated attitude already and yes I have had a real shitty life and death maybe more imminent than I thought but I could be hit by a bus and die tomorrow.  Its just crazy to look back on the life I had. I kinda thought I would have my happy ending by now. But ...not yet..maybe not ever...I have been holding off writing a story about my life because I don't believe I have reached my happy ending.  Now I'm beginning to realize not all endings are happy and mine may not be. I don't know. Maybe it will be I just have to wait and see. Unhappy Last Year to me and Happy New Year to you. Life sucks so make fun of it often and love the people you make with all your heart because they truly love you with the purest made love available.